Miseducation

     Everything is not what it seems. Even if it seems to be the way things are designed to be. Sometimes the conventional leaves far worse scars than the much feared alternative does. You live life the way you were taught to. You respect people the way you were taught to. You even love the way you were taught to. Only to find out years later that you were miseducated & led astray by incompetents who claim no responsibility for their negligence or even acknowledge it, no less. So now you're out in the world, lost. Swimming in the ocean of life & you don't even have a lifesaver to keep you from drowning. What you thought you knew, isn't really what you should know at all. So now you're just out here, winging it. Naive, misguided, & impressionable. And most times, you fall victim to those that prey on your kind. They feed off of your energy because in a sense, it is innocent & childlike because you seek guidance for issues you should have prior knowledge about. 

      You don't even really know what is going on in this matrix of life. So they take advantage of you because you can be molded & manipulated & they you shape into what they want you to be. You believe the illusion. Of course you would. You are completely oblivious to the fact that it is not reality but yet an altered form of it. But before you know it, that "new-play-thing" luster has worn off of you & they see a less tainted, more easily manipulated individual just skipping down the path & they shove you into the thorned bushes. Perplexed, resentful & wounded, you're left there to pluck all those thorns from yourself & carry on down the path of life only to cross paths with many more just like this. That innocence & naivety morphs into disdain & bitterness. You are now the opposite of the person you were once destined to be. You've changed. Not necessarily because you want to but as a survival tactic & defense mechanism. 

Playing With Peoples Hearts....to JLS

Sidebar: I know this entry is long but please read in its entirety. This is how I am feeling & I think you will enjoy this. Also, excuse the foul language in the dialogue. It was only included for authenticity purposes.




Male 1: "Yea nigga I got this new bitch that lives up [insert name of any random hood]."

Male 2: "Word Nigga? Damn. What she look like?"

Male 1: "She badd than a mu'fucka yo. Im tryna see if she gon lemme pop tonight."

Male 2: [Laughs] "You crazy as shit nigga. You bet' not let [insert 1 of 5 baby mommas' names] find out. You remember what she did last time!! That bitch crazy as fuck yo!!" [Laughs]

Male 1: [Laughs] "Nigga aint nobody sweatin' that bitch! You know how many bitches I done fucked & she ain't ever find out?? Shit nigga I got like 6 bitches lined up just waitin' to get slayed. Fuck outta here!! [Laughs]

Male 2: "Ard nigga!! Do you...but I wanna have to see yo ass on the fuckin' news in the A.M. cus that bitch done committed a double homicide & shit on you &THAT BITCH!!" [Laughs]

Male 1: "Nigga fuck dese hoes!! I don't trust dese bitches & I don't love dese bitches!! I just FUCK dese bitches!! So if she find out, she just FIND THE FUCK OUT nigga!! [Laughs] What the fuck she gon' do? Aint like she leavin' a nigga!! I got that bitch wrapped around my dick all in love wit a nigga!! I say jump & the bitch say 'How high daddy?' [Laughs] That bitch ain't goin' nowhere & if she do, FUCK HER!! Shit nigga. Like I said, I got other bitches, I keep these hoes on rotate my nigga!!" [Laughs]

Male 2: "My nigga!!" [Daps each other]

     So I had to hit y'all with a small little dialogue so you can better feel where I'm coming from. I don't know what it is about these so called "men" who think its cool to play with hearts. The vast majority of these said "men" take pride in their ability to manipulate women's emotions & actions into getting what they want from them. And an even larger majority of women have fallen prey to it. I'm not judging. I too have been a victim of the "I tell you 'I love you' but really I would never look at you more than just a receptacle for my dick" kinda men. Most women, at some point in their lives, will encounter this exact kind of man. I empathize for these women because there is no worse feeling than putting your emotional all into a person & thinking they have intentions to reciprocate those same emotions & feelings with the same intensity, only to find out that to them you were merely just a play thing to past the time with & develop their craft with.